19 Days and Counting

I would normally be filled with excitement on December 1st. We would be getting our Christmas tree and putting our decorations out. This year is different. Our countdown to our big Dallas move starts today. I am filled with so many emotions, I don't even know how to express them. While I watch my friends and family start their Christmas traditions all around me, I am filled with sadness knowing ours will be different this year. It's like I am in a bubble looking out.  It feels like a dream.  Packing instead of decorating. Planning for school transfers instead of baking cookies. Scheduling movers instead of planning school parties. Etc... I am trying to focus on what matters (Jesus and family). I know that the same Savior that was born in that manger and later died on the cross, is the same Savior that will carry us through this big change. I am trying with all my heart to trust Him. I know He opened this door for us. Walking through it and leaving the life we know behind is showing a kind of trust and faith only He can give me. This Christmas will be different, but it will be one we will always remember. I hope to look back on this Christmas in a few years and thank God for this non-traditional Christmas. I hope to be able to see it as part of the big picture He has painted for us. And I hope I will like it. But right now, I'll just be honest...it is hard. 

19 days and counting.